Missing you

I miss you Mi Abuela!

Been thinking about my grandmother a lot today. I had blogged somewhere else when she left us. I will post it here. She was a fabulous woman!

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Miricles and acceptance Sep. 4th, 2005 @ 01:55 pm

You must take the good with the bad. That is what I have always been told.

The good the miracle...

My grandfather was diagnosed over 5 years ago with Alzheimer's Disease. It got bad fast. By this year he was in a wheelchair, couldn't read, or talk more than a couple non-understandable words, and he had no memory of me or anyone else he loved.
Then one day my aunt saw something on TV and found out they could be wrong. It took about 3 months and he got checked with a doctor that knew about what else it could be. He was scheduled for surgery and within hours he was becoming his old self. (I am being a bit vague since I don't remember the name and how it all specifically happened)

So I was on the phone yesterday with a man that I never thought I would talk to or remember my name again. My grandfather, in a coherent conversation, told me he loves me!

Acceptance of how life can be...

Threw all this time, the one person that was there and was strong and cared for him and loved him... My grandmother. A month ago got her husband back. (yes it took a month before I got to talk with him again)

Earlier this week he looked at her and she didnt look well. He knew he couldn't take care of himself so he call the police. They came with an ambulance and took her to the emergency room where she ended up having 2 heart attacks. The first was mild, but the 2nd hit her hard.
Now my mother is with them and they have done all they can. They did a brain scan and it shows sever brain damage. She cannot focus, I am told it is like she cannot wake up from sleeping. (I am in Norway and cannot get to the states to be with them)

My grandmother has never shown fear and has always excepted that she would leave us someday. One of her request has always been to let her go when it is her time, meaning no machines.
So yesterday after talking to the doctors, the family was called and a priest. She has been given her last rights and all the family has had a chance to talk to her and say what they would like to her.
I have spoken to my mother and asked her to talk to her for me. To tell her what is in my heart and how I love her.

So today I am making a Pork roast, a dish she taught me and at 4pm (Norway time) I am lighting a candle and celebrating the life she had and that I had the privilage of being a part of it, being her grandaughter.
That is when they will take her off life support.

I love you mi Abuela! always and forever!

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So much for machines Sep. 5th, 2005 @ 11:59 am

Just an update to what happend yesterday.

I got on the phone with my mom. She sounded a lot better. She said she as happy that she has honored my grandmothers wishes and she is no longer hooked to machines.

So I asked her what happen. She said that once the machines were taken off my grandmother started breathing better then when on it! Go figure, she has always been as strong as a bull.
So her breathing is better and her vital signs are better. My mom says it is now a waiting game. The doctor told her that the body can't live without the mind, so soon her vital signs will start to drop. If not (for some odd reason) my mom will ask for another brain scan to conferm what they already know.

I guess with everything else working perfectly, it is hard to get rid of the hope that the doctors are wrong about the brain damage.

I miss her so much and everyone else in my family. I wish I could just hop on a plane to Florida!

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She is free Sep. 5th, 2005 @ 10:05 pm

At about midnight in Florida (6am Norway).

She is free! No longer trapped on earth in her body. She's free!

Positive thought and prayers for healing needed.

I know I have been very much neglecting this blog. Yet it is hard to share when sadness is too much in ones heart.

A very close friend of mine has turned up ill from out of the blue. There had been no signs that he was sick, let alone dying!

Yes, he was fine and now we are told if this surgery he needs doesn't work, we are looking at weeks. If it does work we are looking at months.

We're in the need of all the positive thoughts and healing prayers that we can come by. He is young and a fabulous person. If you can, please add him in your thoughts and prayers. We lack to many wonderful people in this world.

Love you forever Hansy!!!

TV time

It's been a while since we've found a series worth getting lost in. So we have looked into the past.

Babylon 5. I had forgotten how good it is. A well thought out story. Some of the filler episodes are meh, but mainly it is a very good series.

Breast is Best!

'The more our children see, the healthier our future will be!'

Images of breastfeeding should be seen by all! Young and old, in pictures and in public! It NEEDS to become the norm. Our children deserve the best!!!

Breastfeeding photos 'unsuitable for children'

This is an article about how these pictures are being banned. It is a sad place when some can't see the need for such wonderful images.

Pretty kitty

This is my kitty. We have had him for about 2 years now.

I found him one night in front of our apartment. He was weak, hungry, and cold. After picking him up, I realized he was also injured. My husband had wanted nothing to do with pets, so I smuggled him in the house and got him to the vet the next day. The vet said he had been on his own for, what he thought, 5 months and was only about 7 months old at the time. Plus he had been hit by a car over 2 to 3 months prior to finding him. He had a broken pelvis and no muscle what-so-ever on his hind legs. That day we had a blizzard and the vet was sure he would have died if we hadn't found him.

So we had 2 choices. Surgery or put him to sleep. Being that he was injured and in pain, they couldn't allow him to go on that way. So if we didn't want to get him surgery they would have to kill him. My heart sank. I could not afford surgery at the time. Before I had a chance to answer the vet, 2 of my good friends (that had come with me to the vet that day) looked at me and said Merry Christmas. They paid for the surgery so I can keep this beautiful kitty!

I love my Cody!!!

House of Night

Ok, when it comes to books. Normally my favorites have to do with vampires. So of course I have to read when something new comes out that catches my eye.

I am sorry to all that love the Twilight series. They, imo, were just awful as vampire fiction. Stupid teenage romance trash is how I would describe them. The last book, Breaking Dawn, was actually semi ok. Yet they really really didn't do it for me. I was pretty sad after reading them. With so many that just loved the books, I did expect something better.

So now I am on a new series, House of Night. Not bad really. Well not as deep as say an Anne Rice's vampire novels. But, much much better than Twilight. I am starting on the 3rd book and so far I have been entertained nicely without all that annoying teen angst b.s.

Nice to see

Nice to see others that have done the same as me. It is truly a healthier alternative and much better for the environment.

Diaper Free! Photo Gallery.

We only bought 4 packs of diapers in total when she was a baby. Saved a LOT of money! Another plus was we never had to potty train her!

:)

5 years

It's the 5th year since my grandmother has passed. Mi abuela.

I do miss her a lot. Those days when I was a kid and us cuddling while she watched her novelas. Miss you lots!

Love you forever!

Norwegian

I can't speak it. I've tried, I've taken classes. I've even had friends try to help. It feels like history repeating itself. My mother raised me. Spanish is a language I have heard all my life, but I still can not speak it. I've taken classes in high school, in college, my ex's first language was Spanish. He tried, friends tried and after 30 years, I still never could speak it.

Something has to happen. There has to be some way to get me to be able to speak Norwegian. I learn nothing in the courses. I can sit in class. I can pass the tests, but I can not seem to retain what I have learned long enough to get to a point where I can speak it.

So what now? Is there any other techniques that I haven't tried? There has to be some way to get a new language into my brain.

I am not giving up yet!!!

Sisters

I miss them! They just left.

Spent a few days here with me. We had a fabulous time!

It has been so long since I have seen them(almost 9 years). Moving across the world can make family relationships a bit strained at times. So to see them again, to hug them and talk, it was like I had never left! They are the best sisters ever!